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CT update.

 So following on from our last update, chemo was paused to allow the round Tony had been given to run it's full course. It wasn't safe to continue with that particular chemo reigme due to Tony's reaction to it. We had a CT scan on monday as the surgical team wanted to see if the chemo had shrunk the tumor any.

 There was an MDT meeting this morning and our amazing nurse Mel has called with an update.

Good news (bear with me, i'm always searching for the positives). We don't yet know if we're going for a different chemo, or if it's surgery. Now, that could be seen as frustrating or negative, and yes, it's a bit annoying..... BUT, both the chemo team and the surgery team are happy to go ahead with treatment. That means we still have two curative treatment options.

Brilliant!

The hold up is heart health. Both teams would like the cardiology guys to have a check on how Tony's heart is recovering and go from there. Yes it's another delay, but both teams are happy to go ahead and treat him.

Fantastic! 

So we wait for a heart MRI.

On the positive side, in the time that chemo has paused the CT shows no signs of growth, the affected lymph nodes are slightly more enflamed, but everything looks stable.

Hearing that really put our minds at rest. Naturally, while treatment is paused, the concern is that it could be growing or spreading.  It's huge to hear that it's stable.

Something I've found along this journey is that it's really hard to be, or stay positive. Everything seems to feel like a knockback. I've lost count of the amount of times I have thought (excuse my language)  'oh for f*ck sake!' . 

If you can find positive in something, please do, and hold onto it tight. If you're struggling to see the positives, reach out. Feel free to drop me a comment or message about what's going on, i'll help you look. Sometimesa a different set of eyes can make a differencee.

Okay, so chemo is paused, yet again we face a delay....... Negative.

The cancer hasn't grown. We have 2 curative treatment options available to us. The team at the hospital are happy with everything...... Positive.

Try and stay upbeat, even when it's hard. Take a moment, breathe. You know how, when children fall over, think of it like that. A little one trips up, grazes a knee perhaps. We pick them up, brush them off, clean their wound and then encourage them to carry on playing or doing whatever activity they were doing when they fell.

Try and do that with yourself. Some days will be hard, you will fall. So stop, take a breather, brush yourself off, and when you're ready, crack back on. 




 

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